February 25, 2024

Hey there,

Today, I want to talk about why I call myself a treasure seeker.

Back in the day, I was lost. Lost in a sea of questions, doubts, and confusion. I was searching everywhere for something to make me happy, to make me feel whole. But no matter what I found – whether it was in my job, my relationships, my friends, or whatever in my external world – it never seemed to be enough.

I was running from myself, hiding from the truth that I didn’t want to face. I kept myself busy, always on the move, hoping that if I stayed busy enough, I wouldn’t have to confront the emptiness inside me.

But you know what they say – you can run, but you can’t hide. No matter where I went, no matter what I did, that feeling of emptiness followed me everywhere. That’s when I realized that the answer wasn’t out there somewhere. It was inside me all along. So, I made a decision. I decided to stop running and start searching – not outside, but inside.

It wasn’t easy.

Facing my fears, my insecurities, my flaws – it was like peeling back layers of an onion, each one making me cry a little more. But with each layer I peeled away, I felt a little lighter, a little freer.

I started to see that the things that really mattered – love, compassion, authenticity – they weren’t things I could find outside myself. They were already there, waiting for me to discover them. That’s where I was in 2022, I shared my journey to the social life as a way of self-expression. It was also challenging for me at that time because I’m quite introverted and really not comfortable showing myself to the world.

And things have two faces. When I overcame my fear of self-expression, I found myself trapped in another side of that. I was looking at how people expressed on my sharing, counting likes, answering people’s comments, and it dawned on me one day – Is that what matters to me? Although all of that sharing was very authentic, the answer is NO. Then I stopped, and I held myself, stayed quiet for almost a year with a deep focus and a serious self-reflection on whatever I think, say, and do. In our today’s world – the only certain thing is uncertainty. And social life becomes less interactive than the internet. I do see myself sometimes rolling my screen unconsciously, watching short videos, reels, dramas, shopping ads, etc… That happens to everyone. And as the internet opened, everyone also became a content creator – we can share whatever on it. I must say I feel exhausted, my mind went through the screen with thousands of different content with emotion added. At the end of the day, I feel like I drank poison, the more poison there is, the more addicted I am. So as a user, I need to learn how to select things that I absorb and really be disciplined on that. There is a metaphor to say going downhill is always easier than going up. I think you know what I meant for it.

And as I dug deeper, I found more treasures – qualities I never knew I had, strengths I never knew I possessed. That one year in silence was even more challenging than the year of sharing before. It required self-discipline, strong self-awareness, and self-love. I don’t know if you’re familiar with this, but I found myself tending to forgive others easily while being extremely hard on myself. I became my own parent, my own teacher, and my own coach. And let me tell you, it was a roller coaster of experiences – Totally fun and worth it.

The results I received today made me feel loved, whole, and complete more than I have in the past ten years. I had built for myself a set of strong values and acquired knowledge and experiences that keep me confident and accountable for what I’m committed to. My life had changed completely, including my environment, relationships, finances, and health – both my physical and mental health.

I’m still learning and you’re, we’re all lifelong learners. And I think it’s time to start a new chapter.

So, why I call myself a treasure seeker?

Because I believe that each of us has a treasure trove of goodness inside us, just waiting to be uncovered. And it’s through the journey of self-discovery that we find the key to unlocking that treasure.

Are you a Treasure Seeker?

Here’s to the adventure ahead – may we all find the treasures that lie within us, and may we have the courage to share them with the world.

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